Serious Book -The Trader, The Owner, The Slave

Alarmed to discover, via my extensive family tree research, that some of my ancestors considered themselves to be the owners of slaves, I felt it my moral duty to investigate further.

What is the nature of the universal driving force, responsible for motivating ordinary people to raise themselves up by the mass destruction of others? Is there such a thing as a human conscience? Is there such a thing as a human being, or are we nothing but androids – pre-programmed to do nothing but stamp upon each other in a mad scramble for power?

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And where better to locate the answers, than on the bookshelves of Waterstones? In this mode of thought, I purchased James Walvin’s book ‘The Trader, The Owner, The Slave’and got on the case.

A slave owner, a non-conformist preacher and an ex-slave. An unlikely trio, in terms of finding any common ground between them, any thread of human genetic material that might stitch them together as one. Three very different life stories, or so I thought! Wrong, wrong and wrong again!

I already knew, or thought I knew, a whole heap of stuff about Olaudah Equiano, the freed slave turned abolitionist; and about John Newton, charismatic preacher, and author of ‘Amazing Grace’, so I jumped straight into reading about Thomas Thistlethwaite, the slave owner and book collector. Book collector?

Filled with horror and disgust beyond belief, I found it incomprehensible that an avid reader, who spent lavishly on building up his library, a fellow book lover, had divided his time between his two all-consuming passions; the other passion, being an indulgence in sadistic sprees of beatings and sexual assaults upon the black Africans enslaved upon his plantation.

Moving on, I turned my attention to John Newton and Olaudah Equiano – two fine-upstanding moral beings – abolitionists with a shared sence of morality. Not so. Both of these characters, I find out, had a lot more in common with Thomas Thistlethwaite, and with each other, than a cursory knowledge of their stories might reveal. Newton, just like Thistlethwaite, had been responsible for inflicting severe pain upon his fellow human beings; as a seafaring Captain in his youth, his cargoes mainly consisted of kidnapped black Africans, prisoners regularly subjected to beating by Newton himself. Equiano then, I surmise, must be worthy of praise; a hard-working and industrious man, who bought his own way out of slavery, and went on to campaign against the continued enslavement of others. A man of morals? Surely? Soon, however, I find myself reading about one of Equiano’s great adventures as a free man, an adventure in which he sent on a commission to purchase a choice crop of black slaves for his employer. Not only that, but Equiano, like Thistlethwaite and Newton, was a man on a short fuse; in another anecdote from his bestselling autobigraphy, the reader finds Equiano setting about the task of beating a fellow slave into a pulp. At this point, to my mind, these three individuals become as one – no longer human, but three legs of a mechanised tripod.

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Reluctant still, though, to place Equiano and Newton into the same bracket as Thistlethwaite, I seek to find qualities that might set them apart, even if just a little. After some thought, I see it.

Thistlethwaite had access to books, books and more books all of his lifetime, from childhood to old age (yes, unfortunately, he did live to a ripe old age); therefore, as a learned and questioning man, familiar with debates about religion, philosophy and morality, he had no excuse for the choices he made.

Newton, on the other hand, had spent long periods of his teenage, formative years on board ships, without access to extensive libraries. And Equiano, denied access to an education, had been largely self-taught, only being able to indulge in books, after winning his freedom.

Given greater learning, both Newton and Equiano, developed, if somewhat belatedly, into fully-functioning human beings – self-questioning and ready to make amends for their past lives. Both then proceeded to add their voices to the abolitionist movement.

Newton and Equiano both campaigned for the freedom of a slave population they had, in part, been responsible for maintaining.

The third leg of the tripod, the unwanted extra Thistlethwaite, never grew up. With access to books galore, he read, devoured, absorbed and ignored.

Newton and Equiano, you have my full permission, without recourse to a law-suit, to remove yourselves from your third leg, by participating in its long-slow severance!

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N.B. I have no intention of conducting any investigation into any possible connection between Thistlethwaite’s genetic material and my own. (Sorry, Ancestry.com, much as I love you, you can wait for a worthier cause!)

 

 

 

Happiness

 

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Happiness –  the substance of my life.

The hapless old friend who comments on my blog posts, thoughtfully emailing me my response options, which include: cider, ha ha, and thanks!

The app I’m told to install for discounts on Indian takeaways from Aysha;

The tacking pins embedded in the paint-stained carpet of my creative young off-cut;

The hat pins cushioned away on the underside of my late Nan’s wooden-jewellery box;

A pine cone, observed-up and sketched-up with a B pencil, in an O’Level art class;

Nessie, the Loch Ness monster, who terrorised the me-child of my Aberdonian years;

A childhood friend by the name of Vanessa, who hated to be associated with Nessie; instead, forty years later, when I think if her, I can only picture a Van.

The happiness of being pissed, after a pint (or two) of mango cider at The Brewery Tap.

New words, of my own making: phinpessa, esspinhap, spinpesah and shenappis – all of which make the substance of me substantial.

The happiest and most substantial of all of the words of my world – hesspinap!

 

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Image by Greg Montani, courtesy of Pixabay.com

 

 

 

 

Granted

The New Zealand massacre: my thoughts on the hypocrisy of the perpetrator.

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Ordinary.

A regular guy

Granted, he’s an immigrant.

Being an immigrant, he hates himself.

Looking at his own reflection, he wreaks havoc.

 

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Passaged

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Bundled and bundling out of one’s passage,

they fall. All woolled-up, and tangled-up with each other –

tight. Heads protruding from sheaths. Translucent and streaked with

blood. With one’s own blood. From the blood within the passage from whence

they tumbled, all bundled-up and packaged. All packaged-up and white, I vomit,

bundles and bundles of wool. All ready to be needled-up, stitched-up, pearled-up, and

knitted. Fearing the end, I cast it all off, wrap it all up, and flush it all down, raising it up,

all ready for show time.

 

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‘Yarn’ image, courtesy of Pixabay.com

Corrugated

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Hands.

Skin

of middle-age –

corrugated. Not quite attractive,

but just enough, to keep the rain out –

to keep the muscles, and the bones, inside,

but not enough, to prevent the veins from bobbling on

out of my me-ness.

 

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Image by RonPorter, courtesy of Pixabay.com

A Continental Appearance

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Wearing last Friday’s incontinence pad, he ambles on into a game-playing cafe in

Colchester, thinking to play with the crowds.

The crowds, thinking otherwise, disperse and exit.

Out in the streets of a Roman stronghold, a centurion gives his orders, and the games

continue; continental soldiers, with drip-drying-dangly bits, and

wiped-with-shared-sponges bottoms,

being impervious.

 

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Inspired by Ricardo Scribblero’s ancient incontinence pad.

 

‘Lego’ image by Andrew Martin, and courtesy of Pixabay.com

Batted

Disclaimer: This post is primarily to share my own poetry, but it does contain an affiliate link to a poetry collection by John Gallaher. If you choose to purchase Gallaher’s book, I will receive a commission at no cost to yourself.

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‘What’s it like to be a bat?’ he asks.

And then, before I can respond, he moves on,

leaving me hanging;

hanging and thinking

about being a bat

about being me.

Me, echoing you; me being batty, as you, being batty, think about me

and wondering – asking me a question, without waiting for the rhythm of me, for the

beat of me, for my essence, to be batted

back.

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Composed in response to John Gallaher, who asks ‘What is it like to be a bat?’ in his poem ‘My Life in Brutalist Architecture #1’.

Image of ‘Flying dog’ by Julia Schwab, courtesy of Pixabay.com.

If you are interested in reading other poems by my inspiration, John Gallaher, you might wish to take a look at the following collections.

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Squashed In Between

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At the end of the page

I put my hand up and told,

“I’ve finished the page, Miss!

What do I do now?”

“Stop shouting out!” she shouted.

“And don’t ask silly questions!”

So, I sat there for a while,

not knowing what next to do.

“Keep writing!” shouted Miss.

“No-one’s told you to stop.”

I stopped stopping and started

again, squeezing in my new

story in between the lines of

the old, all tiny and wavy,

and uncertain.

“What’s this?” shouted Miss.

“Why all the squashed-up writing?”

I was angry at that, but I got

what Miss was saying. Could

see her point, so I unsquashed

the squashed, taking great care

to rip all of my lines up, one by

careful one, getting things all

ready for the keeping of the

writing – for the feeding of

my story back into the start

and into the end of my own

story. Back into the hollow of

my head – a head stuffed full

of the end, the middle, and

the startings and the swirlings and the squeezings

of all that’s squashed in between.

 

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Image courtesy of MoneyForCoffee on Pixabay.com

 

 

Let Me Believe

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Mortgages and wages and pensions are but pennies to be dished out in alleyways;

out and into the woolly-pavement hat of a homeless bidder.

Keys clanging, I go forth into my own future,

in search of my not-quite-paid-up-for car.

Croaking and spluttering, it, and I,

start, spit and pause

awhile,

chewing on our hopes and plans for a self-sufficient tomorrow;

distracted by abstractions. And, knowing,

that the absurd is, in itself,

sufficient for us now.

But knowing that

for the man,

back

in the alley –

for himself, and for his hat –

our pennies are, for him, all of his yesterdays,

and are, for now, and tomorrow, less than sufficient and more than

absurd.

 

 

 

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, March 2019

Dedicated to all who live on the pavements of Ipswich in Suffolk, UK.

Image courtesy of Pixabay.com

 

 

 

 

Figured

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Figuring it out, there’s no need for me to work on it.

Out there, doesn’t need any figuring.

It’s already been figured.

Once, out there, we

were all black.

All African.

Superior?

Is it superior to be white?

Superior to be ignorant, unaware and with a need still,

a need still to figure out things that are out and about, things already figured           out!

It’s all in our DNA, written into us, and written out of us, in scientific studies, documents

and maps; all of it written up to be written back in again and digested.

You’ve been mapped; I’ve been mapped; they’ve been mapped.

Who are they then – that declare themselves supreme –

but know nothing about the maps of themselves?

I try to figure them out, figuratively!

Can such figures even be human?

Do they have DNA?

Such figures,

I figure,

must be nobodies.

Machines?

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The article, Neo-Nazi Threat, which featured in The Guardian, gave me need to put my fingers to the keyboard and address a question that I’ve been trying to figure out for some time:

What are the Neo-Nazis?

P.S. Notice the variety in colours, even with machines! (See featured image from Pixabay.com)

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