Chapter 2 – The Half-Sister

It wasn’t as easy as she thought, coping in the absence of her younger sister, Rose.

Grace was the eldest of the Howard siblings, the responsible one. And, considering the circumstances – her own lack of a maternal role model, she didn’t think she’d done too bad a job of dragging up the others. Certainly, their father, John Howard hadn’t been around much to dish out any advice; and her stepmother, mother of Rose and Alfie, hadn’t stuck around long enough for Alfie’s third birthday. Not that there’d been much to celebrate. Not by then.

Not by the time The Wall went up.

So much for Rose. Rose who’d abandoned her and Alfie, gone over to the other side, just for some boy – after all she’d done for her. And now?

Now she and Alfie just had each other. Still, with Rose gone, at least Grace had one less mouth to feed, one less fledgling to forage for. When The Wall had first gone up, the food supplies had been plentiful enough. With the generous housekeeping money their father provided her with, Grace had been careful to stockpile a large quantity of provisions in the cellar of their family home; the family home being an eight-bedroom mansion in Northumberland. Not really a mansion, of course, more of a large-suburban newbuild but, to give it its due status, it was rumoured to have been built on the site of Harbottle Castle. It was said, by some, by those who had once been the readers of History books, that Harbottle Castle had originally been home to the ancient Angles[1], and later to Margaret Tudor, sister to Henry VIII.

And on, or in, or below, what may or may not have been Harbottle Castle, ousted by a new-build, now lived Grace. Grace and her half-brother, Alfie Howard.

It was non-too comfortable, down in the cellar; the house had long since been burnt to the ground by the raiders – whether that be by the marauding gangs of the starved-crazy youths from the South, or by the uniformed and vengeful Scots was of little consequence. Once kinsmen, neighbours and, some of them, even family to the Howards – all were now, to Grace, nothing more than monsters. Monsters sanctioned by the state. Monsters of New Europe.

Still, at least the Monsters from the other side had clothes on their backs, food in their stomachs and homes to go to. At least they still registered with anyone who mattered, the authorities in Europe, as being fully human – fully Scottish and, as such, fully European!

As for Grace and Alfie, then being English and on the wrong side of The Wall, they were now officially worthless. Worthless and wasting. It wasn’t so bad for Grace; being seven years Alfie’s elder, she had more flesh on her bones to keep her going. But, Alfie?

“How much more of this old piece of trash do I have to read?” Alfie queried. “How much more before I can have something to eat?”

“One more chapter, Alfie! Just one more chapter, and the soup will be ready!”

“Soup again?”

“Yes, soup again! You love soup Alfie. Yesterday, you said it was delicious!”

“I do like it. I wasn’t lying, sis. It’s just that ..”

“Yes?”

“Well, I was hoping that today we might eat something more …”

“Yes? More what?”

“Nothing. Sorry, I forgot! I love soup. I really do! I’ll just finish reading this chapter then! But, seriously, what is the point of reading this old history textbook. What’s the point of it now?”

“It’s important to know about the past, Alfie – about our past! About England! If just one thing had been different, one different decision made, everything as we know it now would be different!”

“Yes, but it isn’t different is it? I mean, we can’t go back and make a different decision now can we? And, even if we could go back in time, it wouldn’t be our decision to make would it? It would be Horace Thompson’s decision. And he’d say exactly the same thing, make exactly the same mistake, that he made back then! It would be all out of our control!”

“The trouble with you Alfie, is that you think too much. You’re too clever for your own good!”

“Clever? How can anyone be too clever? You and Rose, you brought me up to question things, not to take anything at face value, to think for myself! And, now you’re telling me not to …”

“It’s ready! The soup’s done! Come and help yourself. Have as much as you like!”

Of course, the have-as-much-as-you-like bit was all part of the game – the game of let’s pretend. Alfie knew, just as Grace did, that the soup was mostly all water. It contained very little meat. What little meat they had needed to be eaten sparingly, made to last.

Grace was very aware that of the change in Alfie. The chubby little baby had disappeared long ago. Alfie’s eyelids were shrinking back into his skull, making his big-blue eyes appear larger than ever! At thirteen years of age, almost an adult, Alfie deserved more. Alfie needed more. It had been eleven years, since The Isolation, and ten years since The Wall’s completion. And still, still the English people were waiting. Waiting for all that had been promised to them, all that had been dangled out to them by the people’s Primeminster – Horace Thompson. Waiting for the restoration of England’s wealth, pride, their language and their National heritage.

But what they needed most of all right now was food. It had been bad enough for the first year of the change, when the ships stopped arriving from Europe and the people started to mumble about the lack of variety in the big supermarkets. Brie couldn’t be bought anywhere, not even on the black market, and croissants – more popular with the British than the French themselves – became little more than a fading memory of sweeter times. TV chat show hosts had to referee heated arguments between those with a traditional English palette (usually the over sixties), and those who’d once fancied themselves to be open-minded and modern – the multiculturalists. But, if they were the bad times, then there had been a lot worse to come.

Shipments of supplies from the non-European continents had soon dried up. The matter made worse by sanctions from Europe. What country would want to trade with England, when it meant cutting off trading ties with Germany, Spain, France and Portugal? The loss of such a miniscule source of income had little effect on the rising powers of China and Japan. Indeed, profits went up, almost as soon as they had dipped, with European countries seeking other suppliers for services once provided by the English.

But try explaining all of that to a growing teenager. Alfie needed food. Without it, he stood little chance of making it even into adolescence, let alone into adulthood. Grace, always the provider, had to do something. The food had to come from somewhere. Recalling family stories about how her great-grandmother, as a child during World War Two, had been glad to eat rabbit offal[2], Grace had glimpsed a way forward. A slow way forward perhaps, but speed was of no concern, whereas survival was everything. Rabbits. There were always rabbits.

And rabbits had originally been brought over to England from mainland Europe, hadn’t they? Brought into England from Spain, by the Romans, ready to be bred in walled enclosures, fed up and cooked up as a gourmet dish. Later, when the cold English climate threatened to wipe the rabbits out, some thoughtful keeper was kind enough to dig underground bunny homes for their warmth and comfort during the winter months.  And the unwitting European invaders hadn’t stopped their tunnelling and burrowing since.

Sweet rabbit soup. Sweet vengeance.

Grace and the sling-shot had become one.

 

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, 15th October, 2019

 

Image by David Mark from Pixabay

 

[1] Angles = people originally from North Germany, who settled in England in the 5th century

[2] offal = During WW2 women left the home to work in factories, filling in vacancies left by men at war; some had the messy job of skinning rabbits. A perk of the job may have been a pocket stuffed full of stolen waste, e.g. offal such as heart, liver, tail, paws and tongues.

 

Chapter 1 – The Half-Girlfriend

Serious Poem – Outgoings

Savvy Books – Not Yet Wall

Savvy Book – The Girl With All The Gifts

Serious Poem – Outgoings

Outgoings.                                                                                                                      away …

Going up quicker.                                                                                       up and

Stepping up the pace and upping up the outs.                            flies …

Upping it and picking up a rocking fast up pace, she falls off and

 

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, 15th October, 2019

 

Image by Marc Pascual from Pixabay

 

More from Jay Cool:

Savvy Books – Not Yet Wall

Getting Out of the Day Job 4: A Diary

Savvy Book – The Vegetarian

Savvy Poem – Chronoclastic

Savvy Book -The Lost Boy

Not too sure why so many books I’ve picked up recently, have been so full of Hardyesque doom and gloom! What with The Narrow Road … and The Vegetarian, surely the angry Gods up there must think I’ve had my fair share of the no-way-out-of-a-vicious-circle stuff by now?

Clearly not!

As one whirlpool continues on its descent downwards, another begins on that some journey into the pits of despair …

down and

down and

down

until …

I look at my hand, or rather the space where my hand once was, and see in its place – a supplanter! My hand has been displaced, and replaced, by a …

… hook!

There is no escape for the likes of me! I’ve been hooked in, hooked into my destiny of doom. Doomed forever to read on and on and on, digging myself deeper and deeper and deeper into the soil. Into a soil kept nutritionally rich by the rich pickings to be found in the broken remains of Thomas Hardy and his victims.

But Hardy got one thing wrong. Because, as far as I’m concerned there are ways I could spend my living and breathing time on, or in, this Earth, far worse than to be engrossed, or rather ‘lost’, in a good book, wandering around in the fog of the dark-fantasy world created by Christina Henry in ‘Lost Boy’.

Were Thomas Hardy alive today, he himself would have dreamt up Jamie, the main character in Henry’s novel.

Jamie is trying his best to suppress his pangs of a conscience and to forge out a living and breathing existence within an isolated and violent island community. The island’s human inhabitants are all boys, boys completely controlled by Jamie’s best friend and worst enemy, Peter Pan. Peter has Jamie’s life – and its ending – all mapped out, as Jamie’s young charge, Charlie, recognises:

‘Charlie …pressed his face against my chest, like he was trying to climb inside my skin, trying to find a place where he could be safe from the story. Only Charlie and I seemed to know it wasn’t to end well, and only I knew the story was meant for me.’ (Henry, p.47)

But surely, surely, the story can be changed …?

Can’t it?

Surely Thomas Hardy’s legacy cannot be allowed to reign supreme forever?

Christina Henry, break free from your ties from Thomas Hardy! Thomas Hardy, stand aside, get back down under, and leave your followers free to carry on living into the future ….

Leave them free, to follow me ….

As, I Jay Cool, put the world to rights with a happy ending. A sequel to the ‘Lost Boy’?

How about the ‘Found Boy’, or even the ‘Living Girl’? Sally lives on …

Who’s Sally? Read ‘The Lost Boy’ for yourself and find out! Take yourself on a trip to the alternative reality that is Waterstones online and, whilst you’re there, pick up a few more treats for your feast!

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, 15th October, 2019

Image of pirate by William Adams from Pixabay

 

Other book reviews by Jay Cool. All titles available at Waterstones:

Serious Book – The Narrow Road …

Savvy Book – The Vegetarian

Savvy Book – The Marble Collector

Savvy Books – Not Yet Wall

Savvy Book – The Legacy

Serious Book – The Narrow Road …

‘A happy man has no past, while an unhappy man has nothing else.’ (Flanagan, p.3)

Read this book a couple of years ago, and been haunted by it ever since!

Richard Flanagan‘s novel,  ‘The Narrow Road To The Deep North’ is a story of doomed love; a story which left me feeling as frustrated with the actions, or inaction, of the main character, Dorrigo, as I did following a liaison Thomas Hardy‘s introspective Jude!

The Tasmanian-born Dorrigo falls in love with his Uncle’s much-younger wife, and she with him. This is all great so far – surely the wife will leave the Uncle (he’s too old for her anyway) and live happily ever after with Dorrigo. But, happy endings don’t happen in the novels produced by any writer, who just happens to have read too many Hardy classics (and I’m pretty cert that Flanagan’s read the whole collection!).

The lovers are separated by the usual social conventions and by the intrusion of World War two. Dorrigo ends up as a prisoner in a Japanese Prisoner-of-War camp, and has to bear witness to fellow inmates being beaten, starved and worked to the point of death.

The relief that I feel when Dorrigo, against all the odds, survives, is soon smashed by a post-war ending in which he never does ….

Just look up, Dorrigo! Just look up, smile and open your mouth! Speak to her! Do it!

Of course, this is a novel in the Hardyesque tradition, and Dorrigo never does … do it!

Haunting and extremely frustrating.

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, 14th October, 2019

Image by pen_ash from Pixabay

Savvy Book – The Marble Collector

Savvy Book – The Girl With All The Gifts

Savvy Book – The Vegetarian

A Something Poem – Find Me

Within these walls, find me,

papered over with books.

The walls of my life paper over me,

lifting up my lining, and my lines,

with pulp of mashed-up fiction, mostly read.

And truths, mostly unread.

More of all of it unread than read.

Probably.

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, 14th October, 2019

Image by Free-Photos from Pixabay

Savvy Book – The Vegetarian

Savvy Poem – Keeping Stum

Savvy Style – Ginger Legs

Savvy Book – The Vegetarian

Han Kang’s ‘The Vegetarian’, currently available at Waterstones, is an emotive tale detailing the oft-times oppressive nature of marriage.

A young woman has her chances of finding herself cut short, when she is targeted for marriage by a man who seeks out (rather than desires) one such as her, i.e. submissive, obedient and – in his eyes – bland.

But what is quashed must come out somehow and the domesticated object of a bland wife becomes rebellious – turning vegetarian!

Rejecting all persuasions and forced attempts, by family and associates, to get her to eat meat, Yeong-hye becomes more and more introspective:

‘She was unable to say even a single word in case, when she opened her mouth to speak, the meat found its way in.’ (p.40)

Increasingly, Yeong-hye shuts herself away in a quiet place to read a good book, or to curl up, trance-like, into an inanimate ball on her sofa.

Far from making herself into a nothing, however, Yeong-hye is transformed into the sexualised object of her brother-in-law’s obsessional desires.

The readers is left questioning whether the brother-in-law is any better than the husband, as both patriarchs, in my view, fail to recognise her as a fully-fledged human being in her own right.

Han Kang’s novel won The Man Booker International Prize back in 2016 but, with current opinion extolling the benefits of a non-carnivorous lifestyle, I’m predicting its immediate return to the bestseller lists!

Beautifully written and deeply disturbing …

So get on and read it!

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, 14th October, 2019

Image by Justin Martin from Pixabay

 

More book reviews & other stuff by Jay Cool:

Savvy Books – Not Yet Wall

Savvy Book – The Marble Collector

Savvy Book – The Girl With All The Gifts

Savvy Article – Climatopause

Savvy Book – The Marble Collector

Everyone needs an ally during the dark times. And Fergus, the central character in Cecilia Ahern’s ‘The Marble Collector’, has a whole collection of them.

Shut up in a prison on a par with  Roald Dahl’s Chokey cupboard, by a malevolent schoolteacher, the young Fergus escapes reality by turning what might otherwise have been a passing interest, or sideline, into a lifelong passion.

This does, however, lead to some confusion in his adult life when his marbles become tainted by jealousy, suspicion and falsities, leading to their ostracisation from Fergus’ friends and family.

Whether your passion be for marbles, stamps, Pokemon cards, or books, books and more books, you will be able to relate to the Cecilia Ahern‘s Fergus.

“No, Hubby. No! YOU MAY NOT THROW MY BOOKS INTO A SKIP, OR INTO THE WOOD BURNER!

HANDS OFF!”

But, if like my collectables, yours are a little too large and a lot too many to hide – it might be worth switching!

Game of marbles, anybody?

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, 12th October, 2019

 

Image by InspiredImages from Pixabay

 

Book Review – Not Yet Wall

Savvy Book – The Girl With All The Gifts

Serious Poem – Never the Same

Savvy Book – The Hidden Life of Trees

 

Savvy Books – Not Yet Wall

Independent Scotland

Would England really be better off without Scotland or, post Scottish independence, would a wall need to be built to stop the English from stepping over the border to Scotland?

These are the questions that led to the the novel I am currently working on, with the aptly-named title ‘The Wall’.

Little did I know that John Lancaster was already in the process of publishing a dystopian novel of the same title, so I was a little gutted to walk into Waterstones a few weeks back, and to see my own title sitting there – glaring back at me!

Still, John Lancaster is already an established author, with published work to his name. Surely, the readers out there will want to see something new form somebody getting on a bit – won’t they?

I decide that to purchase Lancaster’s book would be a very bad idea. Why be put off by the competition?

I buy it there and then!

And now?

Now, it is on my every-mounting pile of books-to-be-read! It can’t possibly be anything like my book, so I’m going to read it when I’ve finished writing my own work of wonder.

But, just in case, I’ve now got you interested in it –  not being a self-centred sort of a narcissist – I’ve included a link to Waterstones for you. By all means, buy the Lancaster, as I did, but …

DO NOT READ IT, UNTIL YOU’VE TAKEN THE TIME TO GIVE ME SOME FEEDBACK ON MINE!!!!

AND, NO, I DON’T BELIEVE IN USING LOTS OF EXCLAMATION MARKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THE WORST THING AN AUTHOR COULD EVER DO, IS TO USE !? OR ?!

 

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, 12th October, 2019

 

Chapter 1 – The Half-Girlfriend

Serious Poem – The Thread

Savvy Book – The Girl With All The Gifts

Savvy Books – Old and Wise

Savvily-Silly Poem – Prescient

And here, in the now, I present my present self to my self still to come.

And here, in the now, I present my self still to come to my present self.

Myself is the only present that I will ever require.

Precious.

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, October 2019

Image by fancycrave1 from Pixabay

Silly Poem – The Truth

Serious Poem – Tuesday Morning

Serious Poem – The Thread

Spiralling around the loop and going down it

is nothing

as long as you can thread yourself out

of it

again and

again and

again – until

your head pops up for The Bite!

 

 

Copyright owned by Jay Cool, October 2019

Image by Free-Photos from Pixabay

 

Savvy Book – The Girl With All The Gifts

Seriousish Poem – Moreover

Serious Poem – Never the Same

Serious Poem – Anxiety

Savvy Style – On The Flat